Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Rebelution meets Senioritis

All throughout high school I'd heard about and been warned about senioritis. It seemed to get worse with every new senior class.

senioritis -
1. A crippling disease that strikes high school seniors.  Symptoms include: laziness, an over-excessive wearing of track pants, old athletic shirts, sweatpants, athletic shorts, and sweatshirts. Also features a lack of studying, repeated absences, and a generally dismissive attitude.
The only known cure is a phenomenon known as Graduation
As a freshman I only saw it towards the end of the year, but my junior year it seemed to strike the whole senior class as early as first semester. I always thought it was a stupid manifestation of the low expectations our culture has for teenagers.  I told myself I would never give in to such Satanic influences.  I was determined to be that light for the whole school to see what could happen if a person lived in God's kingdom.

And then I became a senior.

I understand now why it's considered a "disease."  It's never a conscious choice that I make to give into senioritis.  Instead it's an overwhelming and otherwise unexplainable urge to put less effort into my schoolwork.  And it really is a testament to the devil's influence in our culture that we put a name to sinful tendencies and they suddenly become socially acceptable or at least excusable.  By labeling sin we ignore that it is still sin and needs to be repented of.  Lately God has placed on my heart that just because I can call it senioritis and just because I'm expected to do it doesn't make it acceptable to God.

I had been so focused on thinking about the hard things I would do in my future, after college, that I let myself slip into doing the easy things now.  Before I knew it I had fallen into sin and the culture's low expectations of me.  And now that I'm there it seems so difficult to get out again that a large part of me wants to just turn from the mountain and head back into the valley until a more opportune time.  But if I don't start up the mountain now, then when God calls me to His service, I'll still be at the bottom of the valley and I won't be able to serve Him.  I have to get started.